Dieting Update

After about 6 months and a loss of 7 pounds, I am temporarily hanging up my diet. I am totally stalled. As a result of that, I am completely out of proper motivation. You all know the cycle - a plateau stalls your diet, you get frustrated and then discouraged and finally, you quit.

I am not quitting. I am not giving myself permission to live on high calorie stuff at all. I am simply taking a step back and not making weight loss a focus right now. Maintenance, yes. My goal is not gain anything - especially on my trip to North Carolina. If I am not careful, I will eat my way across North Carolina and Virginia. That would not be a good thing!

There have been many stresses in my life lately. My sister's pregnancy and this building project are the two biggest. Sophie is born now and my sister is fine. Sophie seems to have suffered no ill effects from my sister's Lupus and for that I am very relieved! The building project is well under way, but my part of it has not even started yet. I am excited, but I know it will be a lot of work. Trying to get that project done along with trying to diet, getting ready for a very busy summer and preparing for my Mother in Law's arrival is just too much. Dieting takes focus. I find myself in a position where other things must take precedence for a while.

I will also be continuing my exercise regimen the best I can. I have been using The Bean. You may have seen an info-mercial about it. It really works great - much better than an exercise ball. This device was about $50. I ordered mine, but the next day, I saw them at my local WalGreen's Pharmacy. Visit www.bean.com for more information about The Bean.

I have also been using another thing called Fluidity. I have to say I really like it. Nice workout and the kids do it with me. It is aimed at elongating and toning muscle. Very nice. The really great thing about the Fluidity program is that it works everything and you feel very relaxed at the end. Visit www.fluidity.com for more information regarding this product as well. This is an actual machine - looks kind of like a ballerina's beam - and was quite a bit more than the bean. It is a well crafted piece of equipment though. Very sturdy and the video is great - fast paced with three levels of expertise.

Other than that, I have been wondering what in the world my problem is. I have cried no less than three times since Sophie was born. I suddenly find myself sad that I cannot have another baby. The entire idea of Bill and I having another baby is insanity. Bill has made it clear that he is finished having kids and I am as well. I do not even think I could handle another child - personally, socially, financially or otherwise. Physically, I am not able to bear any more children. Therefore, I cannot understand where this very strong desire to have another baby comes from. My logical, rational mind does not even want another baby - but my emotional heart yearns for one. Such a strange thing. Hopefully, this temporary insanity will pass soon! Only 12 more days until the kids and I leave for North Carolina. I am looking forward to this trip a great deal!